The Mind of Shy

Greetings from sunny Florida! I am enjoying South Beach Miami even though I am advised to expect some rain in the next couple of days. I miss Laura and I am looking forward to her coming down at the end of the week. I think we have decided to take a day to go to Disney world and either do the Magic Kingdom park or a waterpark (which we have never done before, but I suppose weather will dictate). Either way, it is just so much fun to hang out with Laura and we could really both use the free time. We have done nothing except deal with family stuff for a solid two months now and it is taking it's toll.

So Laura reminded me of a funny story the other day about her mother that I had forgotten. It was about four years ago I would say and I found out that Norma McCorvey (Roe from Roe vs Wade) was going to be having her first public speaking in La Grange, GA for "Save a Life" since converting to pro life. I was determined to get my copy of I am Roe autographed and I talked to Laura about going. Laura's mother had long been a supporter of Save a Life and was already planning to attend the event. We asked if we could tag along and I think her mother had to pay 100 bucks a piece for us to be able to attend. I was so excited!

So we get to the function and listen to Norma give her little speach. Immediately it is obvious why they picked La Grange, GA as her first stop on the tour. Norma has, what I would guess to be, about a 9th grade education. They had to prode her along and help her with leading questions....bless her heart...this woman has just been a pawn her whole life. First she becomes involved in a legal decision that can't possibly make it through the supreme court in time for her to terminate her own pregnacy...something that was never explained to her....and then she is abandon by the lawyers that she thought were trying to help her. Finally she has found a warm and loving family within the body of Christianity and now she carries their flag high and proud...and I am happy for her if she is happy, but it sure seemed to me that this is just one more nudge in the direction of someone elses cause... Anyway I get off track.

I had just read "I am Roe" so I was telling the story that is in that book to Laura and Mrs. Champion in the car on the way to La Grange. I mentioned that in the book Norma lives with her girlfriend and I wonder how the save a life people view her homosexual relationship. Well after the speaking time, Mrs. Champion pushes our way up to Ms. McCorvey to get my book signed and just when I have all that I came to get I hear Lucy spout out, in a room full of evangelical Christians, "So how is your LESBIAN lover? Do you see her anymore?"

Norma was dumb in her tracks.....all eyes were on her...

"No"

I miss Laura's mama so much and I am so grateful for all the funny memories we have of her......this is a gem I won't let slip away again.....

Okay....so I have done it now...I have finally, actually gotten the cash money to buy the ring to ask Laura to marry me.... Now I know that most of my good friends know that we have been planning to have a wedding next year for some time now...and don't get me wrong, I want our wedding to be everything that Laura has ever dreamed about since she was a little girl. I am just so pround that Laura has chosen to have me as her partner and I really hope that my actions convey the utter adoration I feel for her in my heart. We have chosen the Jule Collins Smith Museum in Auburn, Alabama as the site of our wedding and I have no doubt that with Laura at the helm it is going to be about the most beautiful thing imaginable.

That being said.....money is something I have a hard thing parting with...so the fact that I am now wholeheartedly commited in mind, spirit, and wallet to actually purchasing this ring she has chosen, well....it's a wierd place for me to be in. So I have been thinking about the ring thing and I have decided that my theory is that she is taking a huge risk by marrying me....I mean I don't care if we end up poor or rich...not that sorta risk. The risk is just in the giving of herself to me in marriage...and I to her......the risk is the promise that I will always cherish her like I do now, and that I will always put her first, and that I will gladly make any sacrifice for her happiness. I am thinking of this ring as a symbol of that willingness....it would tickle me shitless to just go out and buy a couple of 72 inch high definition flat screen TV's, but I am not doing that.....so who wants to help me with my vows?